Scale movement

Not much to add. -18 lbs. It's going very slowly, but it is going. I'm about 12 weeks out, I guess. I've sort of stopped counting. It's hard not to look at everyone else's results. I realize that having less to lose, I'll lose more slowly, and I've always lost very slowly anyway. But still...how about 5 lbs in the nest 4 weeks?

getting closer

OK, it's starting to work now. I went to a BBQ on Friday, and I didn't eat that much, but more than I have been lately. Normally I figure that anything less than perfect eating will mean weight gain for me. But no, I lost another 1/2 lb...I eat less, and I'm more satisfied.

The band works!

It gives me a little extra confidence knowing that I can be human occasionally and not undo all the hard work I've put into this with one night of less than perfect choices. (The sangria was ok...I made it, not my best...those little bits of pasta salad and dessert were really good...and my garden burger was great!) I'm so glad this hasn't been a waste of time and money. I'll never be as fast a loser as most, but as long as I don't gain it back, I enjoy not being hungry and still losing weight.

The Creator

Okay, first off, I have no idea why the months in my Blog Archive list to the right are all in Spanish. I've searched Google and can't find an explanation. Maybe they will go back to English all on their own, and by the time you, dear reader, may be reading this, it will no longer make any sense. That would be best case scenario, I guess. In the meanwhile, I guess it doesn't matter too much. The Blog seems to have its own opinion about this.

I had my 2nd fill on Monday. I got 0.7 cc which fills me to a total of 2.2 cc's. I believe I have some restriction from this, but I still get hungry after about 3 hours. I think I eat a little bit less, though. And I've finally dropped another pound. Yay! I've been working out a lot, and biked to work for the first time on Tuesday, which was fun. (I didn't bike up Marquam Hill though; I took the Tram instead. I'm motivated, not crazy.) I never thought I'd say this, but I love exercising. It clears my mind, and it feels good to move. My personal best is 54 minutes of cardio at the gym. My gold standard goal is 60 minutes a day, every day. If I get 5 days a week, that's pretty good, though. Currently I'm working out 3-4 days a week.

On a tip from Kim Miles, beadist, I checked out a free tarot card (single card selection) today at www.osho.com and this is what my card for the day says:

23. The Creator
There are two types of creators in the world. One type of creator works with objects - a poet, a painter, they work with objects, they create things. The other type of creator, the mystic, creates himself. He doesn't work with objects, he works with the subject; he works on himself, his own being. And he is the real creator, the real poet, because he makes himself into a masterpiece.

You are carrying a masterpiece hidden within you, but you are standing in the way. Just move aside, then the masterpiece will be revealed. Everyone is a masterpiece, because God never gives birth to anything less than that. Everyone carries that masterpiece hidden for many lives, no knowing who they are and just trying on the surface to become someone.

Drop the idea of becoming someone, because you are already a masterpiece. You cannot be improved. You have only to come to it, to know it, to realize it. God himself has created you; you cannot be improved.

Whether you believe tarot or not, it's an inspirational thought for the day. And now I must go get propane and make beads.

Progress?

I'm not blogging much because I am frustrated. I'm in the limbo zone before achieving restriction. My second fill is next week and it can't come soon enough. I am back down to 13 lbs weight loss. I eat about 1200 cal a day. I work out 3-4 days a week, 45 minutes at a pretty vigorous pace. I haven't started weight training again yet, but I will soon.

I feel like I do the right things 85% of the time, maybe even more. How much less can I eat when I am properly restricted? I'm having a bit of buyer's remorse right now...which I understand is common during this phase of the band life. There is so much time to sit and ruminate on why I'm not losing as fast as this person or that person. And of course, people ask if I've lost weight yet after my surgery...which adds a bit of pressure. Grr.

But, the weather is beautiful, and I am going to start bike commuting while the weather is nice. I rode the route today and it only takes 20 minutes. I can shower at the gym and take the tram up to work! It's really the perfect biking scenario for someone who doesn't want to face the giant Marquam hill climb on a bike just before working 12 hours. It sounds like a great way to start the day, and I only have to get up 15 minutes early.

Progress!

Finally! I've gotten to a 15 lb weight loss. I have a fill in 2 weeks, and I need it.

Check out a new website I was led to recently: http://www.formerfatgirl.com/index.html. I added it to my links on this page as well.