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Monday, May 27, 2013

Sushi time

This is about 2 months old, but I look about the same today, I guess about 10 lbs lighter.

It's Offiical

-40 lbs today!  And officially at the weight I was when I met hubby.

It's funny how certain weights have significance, especially for people who have struggled with obesity and weight loss.  Of course, there are the major milestones, like getting under 200 lbs (or 300 lbs, or more).  And there are the nice round numbers of weight lost: 25 lbs, 50 lbs, 100 lbs.  But the ones that really stick with me are weights that remind me of particular times in my life.  This is one.  I had just lost about 40 lbs on Weight Watchers when I met hubby, and it was the lowest my weight got before it started to go back up, on its inexorable path toward my lap band 2 1/2 years later.  My next "significant" weight will be my pre-pregnancy weight: that's 7 lbs away.  Then there is my lowest weight with the band, 15 more lbs.  Anything lower than that is uncharted territory.  My lowest band weight was 165, which was also my weight when I was 19, the first time  that my weight really shocked me in my life.  (Oh, if only I could tell my 19 year old self a thing or two...like how I would look back at that time and see a much more beautiful teenager than I ever thought at the time.)  It wasn't that low again for another 17 years, nearly another lifetime for me then.

Losing 40 lbs in about 22 weeks is totally in reach for most people, without bariatric surgery.  But for me it is pretty much right on track, proving that bariatric endocrinologist I saw right.  He tested my metabolism and told me if I wanted to lose about 1 lb per week I would have to eat about 1000 cal a day.  I have lost slightly more than that eating 900-1000 cal per day.  I really need to do some resistance training to improve my fat loss, but it has been so difficult to even contemplate getting to the gym ever, much less on a regular basis.  I could look into a self-resistance workout: pushups and dips and other things with nothing but my own body.  Wouldn't that be a good idea?

But not right now.  My hubby is back in the hospital, still struggling with the same issues of trauma, PTSD, debilitating depression and substance abuse.  It's heartbreaking.  He has been sinking for over a month, and has been asking for help the whole time, and trying to arrange treatment himself with appropriate facilities and our insurance company.  Living with this disease is so much harder than anyone can imagine.  He did really well for over 6 months, but then rather abruptly slid back into despair.  It really is a matter of life and death.  Without adequate treatment, he will be dead in just a few short years, without a doubt.

So for now it's me and Lucy time.  Luckily, she's a good kid, and an easy kid.  The single parent thing is not easy by any means.  I still work 2 jobs (but rarely more than 40 hrs a week) and have to clean the house and feed us and take care of her, and take care of myself as well.  But it's going fine for the most part.  I'm just trying to lower my expectations of myself, not try to do everything perfectly all the time.

I hope everyone has a happy and safe holiday.  It's raining like crazy here in Portland.  But we had an early summer a few weeks ago, so I'm not complaining.  I think it will be a hot summer.  Be safe, all.

Friday, May 17, 2013

Moving again

Okay...unstalled, but still not moving super quickly.  April wasn't great for weight loss.  I'm guessing that is mainly due to stress.

I am really really thatclose to 40 lbs lost.  Any day now!

Today I got my new Fitbit Flex in the mail, at last.  I preordered it, so I guess I'm one of the first to get it.  It's pretty cool, but it doesn't track stairs climbed like the One does.  I guess that's fine...it's just another thing to compete with myself over...but it was motivating.  It looks very sleek, and I don't have to take it off my wrist to wash dishes or take a shower, which is nice.  The silicone wrist band becomes body temp pretty quickly so I don't really notice it is there.  I did like having the info right there on my tracker with the One.  But I kept it clipped in my bra (easiest place not to lose it) and reaching in to look at it...is awkward.  So, instead, I can look on my iPhone app at current info, which is something I'll get used to.  It seems like there should be a watch feature or something...tell the time, maybe a HR monitor.  But I think the point was just to have a very unobtrusive device that didn't have a lot of stuff displayed, esp since most of us carry a phone with us all the time that can give us that info.  So far, I like it, but I am surprised that it does lose some of the functionality that the One has.

I am definitely fitting into smaller clothes and looking like I have lost weight.  I have a long way to go, but most often if I get 10K steps a day and eat about 1000 kcal, I lose weight.  So that's what I focus on.

I'm finding at this point that I don't have to run to stay active, which is good because finding kid-free, job-free time to run is quite difficult.  Walking has been sufficient so far.  We live in an area with a "high walk score", so we usually go for a walk in the evening somewhere in our neighborhood and that takes care of my exercise needs, plus keeps my mood tuned up.

Time for bed!